[BonamassaGirl]

As a child of divorce, let me say that my parents splitting up was he best thing they ever could have done for themselves, and the 4 of us kids. Staying in an abusive home, whether it be physical or emotional (I suffered both) does more damage to the children in the long run than the parents getting a divorce.

In my case, the abuser was my mother. I dreamed of the day I could get away from my parents' constant fighting and my mother breaking my father down every day like that. And what she did to us kids, well I won't get into that. But my Dad was RIGHT to leave her, and I was always happy that he did. My life was better for it. I lived with my Dad after and without all the daily abuse, he was able to raise us kids the way we should be raised, with love and fairness and happiness and a sense of protection and security, and I thank God every day for that.

Sometimes it's better for everyone if the parents divorce. Living every day in a situation like that can only get worse. If you have been to marriage counseling 4 times, and you are still crying yourself to sleep every night and your kids are suffering, then it may be time to make a change.

I am also in a marriage where my husband and I started out the same religion, and I converted to another one. He has been totally supportive of it so I don't know what you are feeling but I can only imagine how lonely you must feel not being supported and encouraged to find your own truth. You should find your own truth for yourself, whatever it is. Do it for YOU.

I wish you all the luck in the world, whatever you decide to do. Stay strong, follow your heart, pay close attention to your true feelings and don't ignore your spirit. It is already talking to you, you just need to listen to it.

Namaste