[Marlee]

Hey everyone,
I need advice, After 10 years of marriage I am so ready to be done. My husband and I fight all the time, we have diffrent religious beliefs ( We were the same until I found out information I did not agree with, and left the church) and for 9 years we have been trying to fix it.

His version of fixing us is to blame me for the problems, make demands that I change, tells me I am worthless, and stupid, and putting me down. I have changed, I have even gone back to his religion on 2 occasions, and when I did , I still was not good enough. I am unhappy, and I cry myself to sleep all the time.

My concern is we have 6 children (5 are his) I hate what a divorce would do to them. But I also dont want my boys to think they can treat women the way I have let myself be treated. I am in school, and have been telling myself that when I was ready for graduate school, maybe things would be diffrent, but now I dont know if I can wait that long.

I want someone to love and care for me the way I am, not ask me, tell me to change every day, I hate the fact I am made to feel I will never be good enough, am I crazy? I just need to hear from people, I know this is only my side, but I am just beside myself. Please any advice, would be wonderful.