Wow Linda, you have been through alot this year!! I have years like that, just hang there and pray things will get better. I can really sympathize with you on bad times. Venting and getting it all off your chest is a great thing to do and many of us do it. I would take one of your babies but I just don't have the money this year. I am sure they will get good homes soon. My family and I have been in a up and down phase also. Things are bad and just when things start looking up, disaster strikes!! This year things are looking up for real this time.
I just have to say one thing that is bugging me...
The weather here has me really upset. It has been storming and raining for the past three days and of course they call for more rain and more storms all next week too. That is all it has been this year, rain. I can't go outside or take my babies outside because it is always raining!!
It sounds like you need a break from reality, something we all need now and then. Hang in there, things will get better, even though at times it seems hopeless, things will start looking up!! I hope everything starts getting better for you real fast!!