[tammy8833]

this is sappy, but my husband has been so sweet lately. he works out of town m-thur, then at the office most of friday. but the other day he bought some new clothes and he bought a few collar polos and some striped cotton shirts. he wears a 3 X (he a big and tall man, oh la la..lol) anyways..he bought a 2 X,(it a bit big) matching shirt for me, so that i can wear a shirt that reminds me of him when im sleeping..AWWWW, the he played me a song about "how your just another fare at the airport, some one left out your invitation, but you my world" i dont remember all the words, country song by brad paisley..i dont make friends easily im really shy..and lately everyone that i considered a friend doesnt talk to me or return my calls..i keep asking him whats wrong with me and he says its not me its them, but i will never really know i guess. i have a girlfriend that i have know for 5 years, we worked together, had boys 2 years apart, were always around for each other, she is going through a divorce now that i thought i was helping at xmas when the EX was being a** about money we gave her money, i offered her a place to stay, the whole upstairs was/is hers is she wanted it. The last time i talked to her i asked her to come stay with me because magnum had just died, my husband couldnt be here, and if anyone remember my post on how magnum passed away, you would know how bad i needed someone, and she refused to come over.
Now she has been avoiding my calls for about 2 months. i had just explained to her how hurt i was by two other girls that were co workers/friends of mine for about a year, i get fired and they dont want to talk to me anymore, i mean we hung out on the weekends, we talk about each other finances and one the girls was much younger i was always covering for her and helping her buy lunch and stuff, i even paid a bill for her and told her not to worry about paying me back, and now has my job. My husband thinks her and the new boss worked out a deal. i dont know but i do know that it hurts..i have never had a lot of friends, the girls i grew up with are either: completely crazy now, thinks she can make lightening come out of the ground, dont talk to her anymore, my best friend lives in FL i talk to her everyonce in awhile and the other girl is now in MI, smoken lord knows, dont talk to her anymore. and my husband wonders why im so attached to my dogs, they cant leave me. i balled half the way to tennessee because i couldnt take my furbabies.

okay i guess i got that all off my chest i feel a little better!!