 sigh
so i found jake a new home.
sigh.
that was hard. i've bonded with him. and now he's gone. and baxter misses him.
but he's with one of my dear friends and i know she'll give him the home he needs. but it's still sad to see him go.
also, i went back to the flea market this month with another friend. and she ended up buying a peek-a-poo (against my advice to get a lhasa apso.) welll.. i haggled the price down from $200 to $175. and i told the woman i'd give her $20 for a lhasa apso, since it was the last day of the market and they were about to close and she reluctantly agreed.. haha.. that's a $200 dog!
sooo i got that precious lil darling. i named her nomi and gave her to another female friend as a present. that was the smartest lil puppy i've ever seen. she's almost potty trained and she hasnt even had her two days yet.
anyhoo.
with all these dogs running around, i realized how much i love baxter. i'm so glad i took that risk, for those of you who remember our story. he's the best thing that's happened to me in years. i love that when other people hold him, he watches me. and if i move towards the door, he comes running. he's really not that needy, he just wants to be in the same room with me.
it's the greatest feeling knowing that he loves me, as much as a dog can. he's so loyal. sigh.
after my boyfriend killed himself and my grandmother (who raised me) died... i really hit rock bottom. i had to take pills just to help me get through the day. everything was steadily falling apart and i'd never felt so empty.
and now i can feel those things healing, for the first time. i know it doesnt make sense to most people, but really, baxter is changing my life. he's making me want to live again.
i love my dog.
sorry for rambling. i just had to get this out. |