Ok, first off, I didn't read all the replies. I think that there is a reason for everything. If this person was the one that was meant to be then you would have waited for him. You wouldn't have taken the steps you did with your now husband. If the other person was to be the one then you guys would have made it clear and he would have done what it took to ensure that i.e. engaged or married you before he left.
I think old feelings are coming to surface of what could have been, but life doesn't work that way. What could have been is the past and you need to focus on the here and now. You are married, you have made a commitment to someone else and until you have exhausted every effort to that commitment then you need to let the other person go. You married your husband for a reason, find those reasons and make them stronger. Only you can make your life what it is. You have the ability to make or break your marriage, you make your own happiness. It's all in the choices we make.
I wish you the best of luck. |