Heartbreaking Reason I posted this in the thread called " i quit smoking" but I thought it may be passed and I felt this needed to have a space all it's own..
well I just found a reason to quit smoking forever.........
Last night I found out my closet friend had just been diagnoised with 4th stage lung cancer, Im so in shock right now, and IM not sure how to handle this! I had lost my husband to cancer ( rare testicular) and Im afraid of having to go through this again, and I know I am thinking in a selfish way and I really don't know what to say to her, I spoke with her last night and I was no use to her because all I could do was cry. I was no help or support for her when she needs it so bad. after speaking with her.. I lost all desire to run for my crutch that ciggy that I now see in a whole different light! that has now possiby taken my friend away. I quit smoking that instant! when the call ended with her, It was a somber feeling and I feel that no craving will control me now because If i light up It will always remind me of my best friend that was like a sister, sorry Im babbling, so please if you are trying to guit please dont wait to do until you hear a heatbreaking reason why you should! |