[Latuya]

Ok, I've calmed down and am ready to share my story with you all.

As some of you know, I lost my aunt this Oct. And it's been so hard for me. I miss her so much and don't understand why God would take her away like he did. I mean to just drop and pass away before even hitting the floor is a little hard to take. Although it sounds like a perfect way to go. No pain! That's the only thing I am grateful for. That she did not suffer in anyway.

Here I do with the crying again, but I need to know what you all make of this!

She worked not even 5 minutes away from here for I would say the past 9 years or so. Before Cherish came to stay with us I used to go meet her on her lunch break. What ever we did rather it be going to get pedicures, having a picnic or just talking there in the lunch room I really did miss that after Cherish came.

After her passing I am really weird about driving passed her work. I have passed by and found myself looking in the parking lot looking for her truck. And each time I would end up in tears. So I avoid going by there now. I will go around if I have to go out that way.

Well yesterday I was out paying bills. I make money orders for my credit card bills. Don't ask me why I don't just send a check, but I don't like to mess with my credit and figure sending a money order is just like sending cash. So anyway the place where I usually go, their computers were down so I had to go to the one down the street. Right next door to SCE (where she worked) I wasn't in that state of mind where it bothered me. I really didn't even give it much thought on where I was. So I got my money orders and was filling them out in the van so that I could send them right off in the mail right there and then. I glanced at my rear view mirror and there she was plain as day! She was walking on the sidewalk. My heart was beating so hard and fast that I could hear it in my head. I looked up again and she was walking towards the van smiling. I had what I feel was a panic attack. I found it hard to breath and I just started crying uncontrollable. I then look over my shoulder and she was gone.

I don't know what to make of this. I don't believe in this kind of stuff, but yet I know what I saw! I haven't told anyone but my husband and my oldest daughter over heard me telling him. I was a mess for most of yesterday. Tim took us out to eat to get my mind off of it but I could not stop thinking about it. I had a hard time sleeping trying to figure what, why and how this happened. I'm not scared or anything like that. It just brought back the feeling of anger, wondering and missing all over again.

Help me with your views and thought, I just can't see how I could be just imagination. It was something so real. Thanks for listening!