Courtney , your love and selflessness is so admirable ,please know your in my highest thoughts and love to see you all through this horrible time , i just know one day it will be just a memory fading ..till then let your heart be at peace and know your power to heal is within you , with a little help from medicine ."love casts out fears " And you are love ..you are so couragous ..peace to you and yours in this journey ~