Amanda, I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling. You ask when it gets better....that is different for every person. We found a bow of Bandit's under my son's bed with hair in it, a month after he passed. I totally lost it! Think back to when you lost your best friend in 1995, at first he was all you thought of, I'm sure. And you never thought you'd get better. Now, you are going through the same exact thing again! I've always said that the pain does not lessen, but you go on with your life and you think about the person or the loss less often...it no longer is the main focus of your life. But when you do stop to think about it, it hurts just as much. That is what I've found with all of the losses I've gone through. But, I truly believe in my heart that NO ONE goes before their time. Don't second guess what you did, I truly believe that it was She-ra's time and no matter what you did it would have had the same outcome. Think of people or pets who survive incredible circumstances, I believe it's because it was not their time to go. Others have a simple accident or illness and they die, I believe it's because their time on earth is finished. Some just seem to finish way sooner than others! I will pray for you, that your pain will ease and that you will find comfort in your memories. Take Care! |