I'm still in shock. I woke up this morning thinking maybe it was just a bad dream. I sent flowers for the funeral (with many thanks for the contributions) for friday and I made the flowers the color of the weddings we wanted. I'm actually really sick myself, so I'm trying to take care of myself physically. I've been sick off and on for 4 months now. I thought about skipping work but I needed to keep busy. I will truly miss my daily talks with Rachel.
