I too am so so sorry to hear of your loss. Sounds like the little love really got you through some tough times after the loss of your mom. My dad passed away on Feb. 21st and I honestly dont know what I would do without Louie and Bella. They really are a blessing. Maybe Shadow was brought to you as a gift from God to get you through a difficult time, and now his job here was done. Sounds like he was your living Angel.
I hope that time will help to ease the pain that you are feeling right now, and please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you.
God Bless
Tami