[Tashasmom]

I can relate to that. When I lost Ty my male yorkie I was devastated and wanted nothing to do with my animals anymore. I cried for weeks. I lost all interest in my yorkies. The only one I had anything to do with was nikita my pit bull. I took care of my yorkies but my heart wasn't in it. I was afraid to be close to them for fear of hurting again. I don'tknow why i kept nikita in my heart but I did. Well Nikita died of cancer and yes it broke my heart but you know what it made me cling to my yorkies. I let down the wall I'd built up against them. I realized that yes I love them and yes at sometime they will die and when that happens I will get through it. It took alot of time for me to realize this. I had even planned on breeding at that time and gave all of that up til recentley. It was really hard on me but I"m glad I got through it and feel the way I do now. I love them and I'm not ever going to shut my heart off from them for fear of losing them. I hope this makes sense..