I am so very sorry for your loss.
It is heart wrenching when we have to let our babies go, it is the greatest gift of love we can give our babies to set them free of the pain they are in.
They leave such a large empty hole in our hearts. You never let go, Maya will stay in your heart forever. It will take time to adjust but a time will come when you will remember the happy times and smile (((HUGS)))