I am deeply sorry for your loss. I am heartbroken knowing how painful losing Magic has been for you. I know Magic never wanted to leave you. You shared a very beautiful bond, trust, and love. Your boy would have done anything to protect you, and you for him. I hope today, your birthday, you remember him only with joy. I know that’s a tall order, knowing how deeply you love and miss him.
A very dear friend of mine passed away today. We taught together for thirty years and she was truly inspirational as a teacher, humanitarian, mentor, and friend. Another close friend sent this out, and I was very moved by it. I hope this hopes to ease your pain when you think about Magic.
“One autumn day, I was in a park, absorbed in the contemplation of a very small but beautiful leaf, in the shape of a heart. Its color was almost red, and it was barely hanging on the branch, nearly ready to fall down. I spent a long time with it, and I asked the leaf a lot of questions …
I asked the leaf whether it was scared because it was autumn and the other leaves were falling. The leaf told me, “No. During the whole spring and summer I was very alive. I worked hard and helped nourish the tree, and much of me is in the tree. Please do not say that I am just this form, because the form of leaf is only a tiny part of me. I am the whole tree. I know that I am already inside the tree, and when I go back to the soil, I will continue to nourish the tree. That’s why I do not worry. As I leave this branch and float to the ground, I will wave to the tree and tell her, ‘I will see you again very soon.'”
Suddenly I saw a kind of wisdom very much like the wisdom contained in the Heart Sutra. You have to see life. You should not say, life of the leaf, you should only speak of life in the leaf and life in the tree. My life is just Life, and you can see it in me and in the tree. That day there was a wind blowing and, after a while, I saw the leaf leave the branch and float down to the soil, dancing joyfully, because as it floated it saw itself already there in the tree. It was so happy. I bowed my head, and I knew that we have a lot to learn from the leaf…”
I believe Magic will always continue to nourish you. The life you shared with Him was truly magical. I’m sorry I never got to meet him personally, but I know the sound of his bark and have loved hearing about the journey you took together. I have learned so much from all of our talks and your beautiful stories. I believe Magic will always live in my heart too. |