It's been four months since my little Oscar past away. The pain is still in my heart. I still miss him a lot. I dream of him that he is in danger and that I come to rescue him. Sometimes I dream that he is next to me and licking me on my cheek and then he has to go and I start to cry and my husband has to wake me up because I'm crying. I know those dreams mean that I miss him, but I wish I still have him with me. I don't have kids but if the pain of loosing a kid is as much as loosing your pet, I don't want to have kids then this pain is so much to me.
My little Oscar I know you are waiting for me at the bridge. I don't know how long is going to take, but Mommy will be with you someday my sweetie pie, so that way Mommy won't cry anymore.
