I am so sorry to hear that your loss is still weighing so heavily on you and Bijou, but we all take that journey at our own pace. The steps that you have taken to memorialize Maezie are beautiful, and I am sure that she is looking back from beyond the rainbow bridge with gratitude.
As you may remember, I lost my baby Tucker under anesthesia when he went in for his neuter almost three years ago now. Our little poodle, Beau, had been with another dog for his entire life, and he was as bereft as my husband and I. We decided to open our hearts to another little one, and then added yet a third! When it came time for their neuter, we became almost physically ill with stress...but they both did well with their procedures. Our loving vet was wonderful in helping us deal throughout the day, and gave us hourly updates. He also let us pick them up at the earliest possible time after the procedure.
Although we can never "replace" our beloved companions, I have found that bringing a new, unique little one into our home has helped us heal. Tending to the needs of a new little life is consuming, and offers stretches of time when our thoughts were forced to look forward, rather than dwelling on what could have been. Throughout Ty and Gus' babyhood we have had opportunities to remember happier times with our beloved Tucker..."remember when Tuck was so proud the first time he mastered the game of fetch?", etc. He holds a special place in our hearts, and our history, and will never be forgotten. My hope is that you soon begin to get to that place with your Maezie. Please know that she would have wanted you to find peace, and happiness, and to remember her with gratitude for the love that you shared. |