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Originally Posted by Gew  Just wondering if you are doing any better.
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It’s been tough, and not just on me. My mom called me yesterday on the phone and was just crying saying how much she misses Maezie. And she picked up Maezie’s paw prints today that they make impressions in clay and then frame them. I couldn’t pick them up, just emotionally I can’t do that, so she did that for me. Neither of us are ready to unbox them. Apparently by the end of the week there should be results from the necropsy. I heard it’s a quick thing to do but I don’t know how thorough of testing they’re doing and whatever. I’m a little surprised it’s taking this long but whatever. I still feel like I just can’t believe it.
I’m back working though. I took a week off work. And I’m thinking about if I’ll ever be able to pick up her ashes. They’re gonna be at the clinic when they get here, but I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to pick them up, let alone scatter them. I still can’t believe it. It’s unbelievable. This whole experience has turned me into an emotional wreck. I’m just now a very sensitive person that’s on the verge of crying all the time. But I’m holding it together the best I can and starting to get back into the routine of work, hobbies, I have my other dog Théo to take care of, meeting up with friends, etc. So I guess I’m doing better. I feel like I’m able to grieve a bit and that I’ll be able to cope with this ok. I’m still kinda going through the stages I guess. The highs are getting higher and the lows are a little bit more spaced out. In time I think I’ll be doing even more better. So I’m doing ok.