[Parka]

I am very grateful to finally have some positive news to share with you guys. Last night when I got home from work, he was behaving very normally. Part of me wondered if I was hallucinating his return to pre-surgery behavior. He had been the most miserable dog in the world since Saturday. I did end up going to the gym, and when I came back he was back to being miserable. I started to think I was actually going crazy.

This morning I woke him up for potty and meds and he was back to normal again. He is not a morning dog. He didn't want to get up, and after I fed him he went and curled up on one of his stolen throw blankets. And then, a miracle happened... he let me brush him. I really think he is ok. I still took him to the vet for his checkup, since the right eye continues to weep and now the right nostril has joined the party. But I feel pretty confident now that he is making progress in his recovery and will be ok.

This experience has renewed my respect for parents and caregivers. It's so hard to make health decisions for another living being, especially when they can't speak for themselves. In the last couple days I've gone through so many emotions... guilt, worry, fear, confusion, frustration, and ultimately joy. I had a couple meltdowns. I drove my friends crazy. I questioned my sanity at many points.

I'll let you know how the recheck goes today. I think he will appreciate having the mess attached to his right eye wound cleaned up. Or at least I hope so.