[DebSoFlo]

any advice or kind words would be greatly appreciated...

i rescued a 2-3 year old "yorkie" - i am not even sure if she is really a Yorkshire Terrier or a Silky - i've been researching so not sure but doesn't matter to me.

she is sweet. i got her 2 days after her spay. she is potty trained outside. she lets me brush her. i haven't been able to bathe her yet since she had surgery and my vet said wait 10 days. ugh. couldn't get grooming appointment until january 5. so Sunday i will give her a shampoo and wing it. should be interesting.

i am stressed. i am anxious and tired. she is ballistically "resource" possessive. she has chewed up E.V.E.R.Y. singe T-O-Y that i've bought her. i've only had lucky getting her toy away with some cheese. otherwise - NO TREATS (i've tried at least 10) appeal to her. she growls at everyone. forget about other dogs. i think she's done ok for the first week but i'm not - LOL. my husband has zero patience so it's all on me.

i lost my last rescue in October (she was a terrier mix, 25 pounds, sweet in every way, got cancer at 4years old and died within 4 months). i miss having a dog around and found this little one (7 pounds) and "donated" a good deal of $ to Pet Rescue and Adoption in Boca Raton and she came home with me.

took her to get her on raw food. there's a great husband/wife team that own a retail space that are a wonderful resource. i am having a strong feeling that when i start her on this raw food tomorrow it could get messy. i am willing to try. just my personal preference and hoping she adjusts as it's my first choice for food. no judgments on anyone else's choice just worried that she could get tummy ache and i will be dealing w/ that. have pumpkin and goats milk to help but we will see.

just having those "did i make a mistake" moments. i think i found her for a reason. i believe it. so i will do everything that i can to make her feel safe and loved. i just can tell it's not gonna be easy.

please someone tell everything is going to be ok... LOL - there is so much to work on with her and i have NO idea about what happened in her past. my guess? she was probably used to make babies. she really is sweet and sleeps with me in my bed easily throughout the night. she comes to me and gives me kisses.

sorry this is long. if i could hear from a few other mommies/daddies out there especially any that have "rescues" it would mean a lot to me.

thank you...

( i am usually the one helping other people - so this it's not easy for me to ask for help, but this forum is anonymous so it's easier for me.)

thank you to anyone who has read this all the way through...
xoxo

Deb