My heart also goes out to you. Max knew he was loved and had a very warm loving home. I think Max knew it was his time to leave but he did not want you to know. He was fortunate to have great pet parents and he could pass away at home. I have gone through death with my little ones but it was always bringing them in to be euthanized. Either way it is tough to go through. Think of all the wonderful memories you had and all the fun times. I know what you mean about Christmas because that was my little Keally’s holiday. She loved the Department 56 houses and every Christmas I would put them out for her. She would look at them and touch them gently. When she passed I never put them out again. Do not do what I did ; celebrate Max on Christmas with his memory. He is looking down and he wants you and your wife to go on . I decided I am going to put Keally’s things back out again for Christmas and we will always treasure the wonderful memories. Remember he knew the love he got from you and you will see him again. I hope Max meets my little Keally over the Rainbow Bridge. Take a day at a time and my little Kinder and I send a hug for comfort. Susan |