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I had one baby who passed in my home. She was fine, not sick, not on any meds. We had just come home from a camping week end. Once in the house I saw she was restless, kept going from room to room, going into rooms that she never did in the 13 years she was with me, I found that behavior kinda strange because she was always in the same room with me. Then I realized it was about 1/2 an hour and I had not seen her, I went room to room looking for her. I found her passed away in the den. Then i realized the reason she was restless, going from room to room was, she was looking for a place, she knew she was going to die. I had read when a dog knows it's their time, they look for a place to pass away. I wrapped her in a blanket and drove to the vet with her on my lap crying all the way. The vet asked did I want an autopsy done to find the reason of her death. I asked would that bring her back? No, I didn't want that. Over time I came to peace with myself and realized if she had to leave me it was better she passed in her home. I had one baby left that went into a state of deep depression, I couldn't mourn the death of my baby, I had to stay strong and up beat for my baby girl that was now the only fur baby. I had just lost 2 babies 6 months apart. It was horrific to find my girl had passed away when there was nothing wrong with her.