[Garoto1973]

Hi everybody! This is my very first post , because... well I only have had a dog for a little over a month. However, I have browsed YT for the last couple of weeks and I am liking it a lot. I want to share my story because I am going kind of crazy trying to figure out what is happening to my mind with this dog ownership situation. So here I go:

I am a 44 year old male, never had a pet in my life until now. My parents never wanted a dog or cat even if we had a big yard. My mom was bitten by a dog when she was pregnant of myself so she basically banned any possibility of pets in my house.

So FF many decades and then I am myself, never cared for dogs , not that I was mean to them but I had never put much attention to dogs, never understood why people liked them so much, never paid much attention to stray dogs, I was completely out of it. Add to this the fact that I suffer from rinitis and my sister in law dog gave me many allergies so I always avoided her (a cocker spaniel). She has sonce passed away (her dog that is, not my sister in law). She then adopted 1 yorkie and bought a second one. They were different, I could actually be next to them without fearing any rinitis attacks, plus well, they were friendly and playful.

To complicate things my wife does like dogs but I always told her "over my dead body" or "dog comes in, I walk out".

Then we got a call. This 1 year old yorkie was been returned to the breeder as he was kicked out after 8 months as he was having "conflicts" with a baby. The breeder is the same where one of my sister in law yorkies came from and my wife had secretly asked her to let us know when the next adoption was available (she does not sell, just gives them on adoption to trustworthy people). She said to my wife "if you want him its yours, I trust you". I could not say no as I knew my wife had been waiting for this opportunity and well, besides I said to myself "its her dog", "I am not taking care of him", "I wont love him".

FF to today (Otto has been with us for 1.5 months), he is 1 year , 3 months old:

1. I love him, love him, love him! I mean like "you are now a close relative" love
2. I think about him 24/7
3.I buy him gifts
4. I am suddenly interested in the pet section of the supermarket
5. I love to cuddle with him, I dont want to work one minute overtime at work, I just want to rush home to see him
6. I have stopped caring about seeing mud inside my house
7. I go mad when someone makes fun of him
8. Since 1 month ago all my youtube searches have been dog related
9. I created an instagram account for him and my sister in law dogs (yorkies_lostitaritos) and they have more friends than I do
10. I have actually found myself inadvertenly calling him "son"
11. When we have dinner, he is the one being served first (by me)
12.I have separation anxiety when I leave him at home (not the other way around)
13. I stopped eating out when I cant find a dog friendly place
14. I am obsessed with the quantity and quality of stools he produces
15. I dont see my dog as a "pet", he is part of my life now and I want to be always together with him!


Am I going nuts or what! My wife now is jealous that Otto seems to like me more than her as this was supposed to be her dog!!!!

She tells me "you were supposed to be indifferent to him" whenever when me and Otto cuddle together in bed.

Please tell me if I need to go to terapy, Otto has entered my life and I dont understand why I am feeling so much love, I am so confused!