[canana]

I think when our babies pass away, no matter what the reason (though I know it was hard on you that you had no idea the cause), it's absolutely the hardest thing ever.

I remember having to put down our past dog. I didn't want to leave the room when they did it, because I wanted to be with her until the end. But, being in the same room was just as traumatic - I'll spare you all the details... But one second she was alive and the next she was gone. My entire family was in the vet clinic room crying for what seem to be forever. It was so unbearably painful. Taking another living being's life, even though it's for the better, is SO hard.

It's been five years now, but to this day, I still tear up uncontrollably whenever I think back about it.

Anyway, it's really really difficult. There's no easy way to deal. Whether it's crying, talking about it with us, anything you feel like - we're here for you!

P.S. I also kept some of her hair and have it in a frame with her photo.