Today was a better day for me. I only slept about three hours last night off on and on but I woke up with a different attitude. The guilt had finally left me. I realized that Flossie was no longer suffering. I prayed last night that I would finally see the reality in the whole decision and I think I finally have. Of course I still miss her but what pets do you actually get to spend 18 years with? I was totally blessed with her presence so long.
I still tend to look around for her just out of habit I guess. She will forever be in my heart. I remember the suffering times but I'm trying to just remember her in her good times. |