[Mer4ever]

I am so sorry to read this. I lost a baby to kidney disease a little over three years ago. There were some really good days in there during the last few months and the last two weeks of her life she really perked up and enjoyed good quality of life for the most of the days.

Enjoy those days and know that you are the one who knows what is best for your baby. I tried to stay true to what I believed during the last few months of her life. A friend told me that I would know when my baby was ready to go. After months of her and I fighting for her life, I truly felt the moment when she was finished fighting and ready to be released from the struggle.

It was a devastating experience, but I am comforted by the fact that I stayed true to what was right for her and the love that she and I shared. My vet had suggested we put her two sleep a full two months before her death, which would not have been the right time.

After my baby died, I discovered a vet who does at home hospice care. When my mom's dog was dying, we engaged this vet service and it was a God send. The vet assessed my mom's dog's quality of life, pain level, and provided appropriate palliative care. This was after my mother's vet had proposed that she put her dog to sleep---and my mom and her dog had six months of wonderful time together with the support of the hospice vet.

It sounds like you have a wonderful vet, but I did want to share the experience that we had with the hospice vet. After my baby's vet basically told me that there was no more that he could do, I do think that I would have benefited from the support of the hospice vet---someone who could have assessed the situation at home and could have provided palliative care. For some dogs there is a window of time in between when there is nothing that can be done medically and when they are ready to leave this world.

My heart breaks for you and your baby. Be comforted by the wonderful love you are giving him and the happy life he continues to enjoy with you and in your loving care. Many prayers for you both.