[oneofakind864]

I am coming up on the 1 yr anniversary of losing my little Chanel. We "Almost" lost her 2 tmes during her life. The first one she did exactly what your little Edith did and hit the concrete head first ( I heard it) But then she stood up and shook it off. I literally thanked God everyday for the rest of her life over that. She also fell down a fight of hardwood stairs a few years later prompting us to move to a one level place( and I will NEVER have slipery hard surface stairs in my yorkie home again. There is no rhyme or reason to why God allows some to make it and other he brings home. And it is VERY hard to understand when such a young baby is taken. I certainly don't know.

But with Edith... and also Abby. My heart is breaking for you. I am grateful you still have their brother. Losing a fur baby is hard enough, but losing a baby and having an empty home is the worst. The little fella is having a tough time too so love on him every time you think about Abby and Edith. You'll console him...and he will distract you from the empty void Edith and Abby left.

I felt guilty getting another pup when Chanel passed. But I couldn't stand the empty house. Now almost a year later. I still miss Chanel, but I also love and adore Roxie, in a completely different way then I did Chanel. ANd Roxie didn't take Chanel's place in my heart ( Which is why I was feeling guilty at the thought of getting another baby), my heart got bigger to create a whole new place for Roxie.

I know you and your husband are hurting right now. Hug each other and cry for a few days ( with your remaining baby) Then think about filling your house with new babies to grow your heart even bigger...and to distract you from obsessing on the would've should've could've you are going through right now. There is nothing you could've done to protect your babies anymore than you did. And your husband certainly isn't at fault. So TELL EACH OTHER that you don't hold him responsible and use this time of mourning to draw closer to each other.

When the time is right... you'll want another furry child because they bring us so much joy. Don't feel guilty about opening your home or your heart to that love.

Prayers for you both though right now and big hugs.