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I'm embarrassed to even write this, I feel so silly, immature, and selfish.
I received a Save the Date card for my best friends wedding today, meaning I was not chosen as a bridesmaid. I am so hurt, and so sad by this - like bawling sad. I know it is absolutely ridiculous, because it's not that big of a deal. I don't know why I'm so upset by it. This would be the person I would have no questions for having a bridesmaid. I'm so embarrassed. I am 28 and this was my only chance of being a bridesmaid for a friend. I feel stupid for thinking this person would be my maid of honor, when I wasn't even in her wedding? I'm also really hurt that she didn't call me or anything explaining why... but then that is selfish - why should she have to call me to explain her own decision. AHHHHH!!!! THIS IS WHY I STAY HOME WITH MY DOGS ALL THE TIME!!!

After high school we kept in touch, but not as much as we used to. I guess I just always assumed I would be asked. She let me know right after their engagement, and asked about my preferences about a photographer I had used. I feel like I have absolutely no friends, and honestly, she was my only close friend... Others have moved, started families - and I just have had SUCH a hard time after high school finding friends. I'm definitely an introvert, so this makes it more difficult. I just feel so... alone now. I feel like I just do not connect with girls my age. I don't like the Kardashians, and I could care less about a lot of materialistic crap that goes along...

Sorry for this ridiculous rant. It's been a long day.