[Opium88]

I thought the same thing. And now I have 2 more since then. When it's a tragedy that takes them, ... especially a tragedy that could have been avoided in my case, it rakes your soul and hurts twice as much because it's laden with guilt and self loathing. But i eventually came to terms with the fact that she truly was gone and no amount of sadness , tears, or remorse was going to change that. And only then did her memory start to make me smile again, and I realized that she was worth it. And i wanted another reason to smile. So I used Izzy being lonely as my excuse to get Toby. And then I got little Madlyn. And I still get sad sometimes of course. But I couldn't imagine life without all the joy they bring...even knowing how much it's going to hurt when it's their time to go. Remember, all those beautiful little souls want the entire time they're here is to please you and make you happy and be loved. Do you really think that changes just because their body isn't holding their spirit? The last thing they'd want is to be the reason for your sadness. So even when your sad try remembering things that made you smile and eventually you really will.