Boy, sometimes life throws too much a person's way. I am so sorry for all you've gone and are currently going through. When my son was 16 months old, we moved for my husband's job from the only home we had ever known. I was a stay at home mom to my son, because he couldn't go to daycare due to all of his vomiting problems (which turned out to be food allergies). I had quit my job of 11 years to stay home with, so I felt I had no say in whether we moved or not. That had to be the saddest time of my life. A baby and living too far from home with no family or friends. My husband was working all the time, so I had never felt so isolated and lonely.
My husband regularly tells me that I love too much and too hard. When he would go away on trips for his work, I would get physically ill due to the loneliness. I feel like I love my husband, son, and dog "too much," if there is such a thing. It causes great heartache in life. Anxiety is part of my life, and I learn to live with it.
Right now, my Zeus has been diagnosed with Legg-Calve-Perthes Disease in the left hip and luxating patellas in both hind legs, with an injury to the left knee. We don't know if the hip caused the knee injury, since he was pulling lame. The vet thinks it could have. We are seeing an orthopaedic vet Thursday. We know he has to have surgery for the LCP Disease, but we are hoping he doesn't need surgery for the knees.
I am telling you all this, because I was a complete basket case at the vet last Friday when I was told all of this. I went to the appointment by myself, and I literally burst into tears at the news. My husband almost had to drive me home. I worry about worrying (as my mother always said). I know it is part of my personality, so I just have to deal with it. I, too, like you wanted another dog; but there is no way I would do that now with all of Zeus's problems. We must take care of him first. He is already neutered and we never planned to breed him, so that is a good thing.
I wish you well with your baby and hope you can get a grip on this "funk" that you're in right now. Please keep us posted. Sorry for the long post, but I really felt a kinship to your situation. |