[Deviruchi]

hi guys.. for those who came across couple of my threads on kupo... i just wanted to let you know that kupo passed away 2 days ago.... he was just 6 months old... and i apologize in advance if it seems like i'm just rambling on and not making any sense.... my mind is still going crazy and i can't really think straight...

but... we are not sure what exactly happened as it happened really fast, and now he's going through autopsy as of yesterday, and we are waiting on the results... they say it may take upto 2-3 weeks and i'm dying little by little wanting to know how my sweet little baby could have died like that...
he went on his normal walk around 6pm, when it was cooler outside... he didn't act weirdly at all during the day or days prior. i even got him checked for liver shunts couple weeks ago and all was fine...

but... when he came back from his walk... he started to throw up for no reason, flaring around and died immediately... it was so scary... we didn't even get to take him to the vet in time as he died in less than a min... my boyfriend tried to give him cpr and everything, but nothing worked...
i just don't understand... i tried to give him the best and i tried my best to raise him, since i really saw im as my own baby...

we even had planned to get his gf this weekend from europe, (she was going to be imported), so he'd have a friend to play with, and i'm not even sure if i can give her all the love she deserves since i'll be still grieving over kupo...

the doctor's i've talked to, regular vet to the autopsy lab, so far do not think that he could have simply died from choking, and there may be underlying cause.... and our regular vet and i are so confused since was known to be very healthy for a yorkie... i took him to the vet regularly and got him checked for everything, even luxating patella at age of 6 months old..

last night, i even built him this to thing last night to put his urn in when he comes back home i put some of his favorite toys... and bought a nice storage chest to put his bed and clothing in...
my boyfriend and i expected him to stay with us atleat 15 years.. and him leaving us, only at 6 months is just heartbreaking...everywhere i go, everywhere i see, all i see is him, wagging his tail, asking to play with me to love him...

the night he passed... i couldn't sleep at all... i kept having nightmares of a scene where he was dying, over and over again... i'm not sure if i'll be able to get over this soon... i'm pretty sure i'll never will... kupo was the best puppy, and i'll always remember him as my number 1 yorkie..