Originally Posted by lisaly  Please stay here if you are able to. We care about you and want to be here to support you. I fount YT after my sixteen year old little girl, Ashley, was diagnosed with irritable bowel. I lost her nine months later, yet I still came here most days for almost two years without a dog in my life. My two dear friends I met on YT found Katie for me, and when I was unable to travel to get her, one went and got her and brought her to me. That was three years ago, and I completely adore her. I will always love and miss my other babies before Katie, and we talk about them a great deal with such joy. The pain is still there, but the more powerful feeling in our hearts is overwhelming love.
Xena's death hit me hard. I know the terrible pain you are feeling, especially after caring for her the way you did. You saw such improvement, and then to lose her after that is devastating. I experienced that with one of my Yorkies. Her illness with congestive heart failure brought me to an even closer bond with her, if that was even possible. We pulled her through and went on daily hourly round trips to the vet with just her for fluids, a quick checkup, and a vitamin B-12 shot (my vet charged me only $19 a day for that) for a month. Kiwi got much better, and we were so incredibly happy. She was weak, though, and we lost her from an eye infection. To say my husband and I were heartbroken is a huge understatement. Kiwi was close to ten years old, and then her baby sister, my tiny little girl with severe collapsed trachea all her life, passed away four months later. My husband believes Gracie died from a broken heart because she idolized Kiwi. She was only 9.5 years, but my vet told me after the fact that he never expected her to live beyond five. Losing our two babies so close together was devastating to us. We always said if we lost Gracie we would get another puppy, so they'd always have a sister, but we were so heartbroken that we weren't able to consider a puppy at the time. So Ashley remained our little princess for all of those years by herself, and we poured all of our love into her. I fell in love with her from our first night together, so I know how devastating your loss is, especially since you had so many hopes and dreams with her.
When you feel ready, please consider another baby. You are so caring and loving, and you're a great mom. No Yorkie can replace another one; I say that with experience. My last three were within a year of each other, came from the same breeder, and had the same beautiful sire. There were similarities in looks, but each of them had a different personality, all of which I completely adored. When I lost my first Yorkie, Jolie, I never thought I'd love another one as much as her. But then I soon found out that I was wrong, and Ashley stole my heart really from the first time I held her soon after I lost Jolie. We had to wait several weeks before she could leave her breeder, and that gave us time to grieve for Jolie. Waiting almost two years for Katie was far too long. We were so lonely and sad, and we really didn't know how to live without a dog.
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