Thank you. My eyes are swollen from crying all day. I did everything that I could, but I still feel like I failed Hazel somehow. I can't get the image out of my head.. she was barely holding on when I arrived at the animal hospital, and I could tell she was suffering. She was only breathing 4 or 5 times a minute, and it sounded like her lungs were full of fluid. Her eyes were rolling back and she was completely limp. Had no strength to move at all. I asked the vet to give her the shot so she could pass peacefully and quickly, and Hazel looked at me right as the vet injected it. I completely lost it. My poor baby. I only had her for a week, but I hope she felt how much we adored her in that short time. Now I'm crying again.
The breeder offered me my money back, or another puppy from a different litter that she says seems to have gotten immunity from the vaccines. She said she wants to keep her for another 2 weeks just to be sure that she doesn't develop symptoms of parvo. I am terribly conflicted.. what if she only has partial immunity because she hasn't completed the full round of vaccines? I obviously have parvo in my house now, and I would never forgive myself if I brought this seemingly immune puppy to my home only to have her catch the virus a few weeks later. I could request that the breeder runs a titer test to see if the pup is indeed immune to parvo, but I would still be terrified. This is probably a terrible idea and my head isn't on straight, so please be gentle.. let me down easy if you think it would all go terribly wrong. I'm leaning more towards getting a refund and waiting a year or two before trying to introduce a new dog into my home again. |