[jshade]

I read your post and completely understand your grief. We just lost our boy, Milo, to a severe case of Pancreatitis and he was only 3yrs old. My heart is hurting and I am overwhelmed with grief. There is such an emptiness without him. He was our baby. My husband is also devastated. Everything reminds me of him. I keep thinking about his last days and wishing we could go back in time so we could do things differently. We know it was not our fault intellectually but still blame ourselves. He was such a joy and we expected many more years with him. I am sending an understanding hug. This is a good place to express your feelings because we all dearly love our babies. I know I loved mine with all my heart.