[yorkietalkjilly]

You poor, poor thing. I hurt reading your post. Hold on - life gets bleak and awfully dark at times but somehow we find the courage and strength to keep going - if only a bit at a time. Mostly it's through our faith, our family and friends that we find the grit to go on somehow when everything seems empty and we've nothing left. But through all that pain and loss, we find out that all we need to do is grieve as we feel the need, get through the next hour - and then the next. Don't think beyond that. Let the pain come out through tears or however it needs to when you feel like it.

Don't think beyond that but just manage as you can to reach out to your dear niece, say the things you've always wanted to if you can and get yourself and Hanna through this hour by hour. I'm sure the vet has given you a plan for how to manage her during times of crisis and if not, ask him for a plan to see you through if you need it.

So many people go through terrible, tragic times like this and somehow we all make it, even when we know we can't do it and give up hope life will ever feel good again. It will but giving love asks a price of each of us when the time comes, there is nothing left to do but pay it and give up our loved ones as we must. Don't worry, know we will see them all again one day. But until that time, we mange to go on in their name, to live to honor them somehow. No one has a map for these times - we all just feel our way through with the help we can find by reaching out and blurting out our troubles and distress, asking for help as we need it, taking solace wherever you can find it. Call your minister, a counselor or dear friend to chat if you need a friendly, warm voice as that always seems to help when it gets darkest. Any time you feel like it, post here and always find a waiting friend, eager to help in any way. God bless and keep you all the way through this deep valley. You will make it through. You will because we'll help you. Here's a (((hug))) from a YorkieTalk sister.