Dementia has progressed & death is all around Warning: I am gonna cry on your shoulder because I have no one else at the moment.
My Hanna has developed dementia as some of you know and I was told she shouldn't travel anymore but I had no choice. We live in Alabama and we got a call my mother in law was dying come quickly. So we did. We traveled in the same truck and took our RV to keep everything the same but Hanna acted like she had never traveled before.
Her pacing and crying and whining and having to stop, just broke my heart. It took a couple of days to get there and it was one of the worse trips I have ever had. I would hold her, and talk to her and pet her and get her calm down. This was not my baby girl.
Than my mother in law died so we had to go through all the funeral preps and services and all that follows and the trip home was just as bad.
Not even home yet I get a message they called in hospice for my 56 year old niece, her and I pretty much grew up together. She is dying. I am just sick at heart, with all this going on and I admit I am scared to death for Hanna.
I have had to hold in all these emotions for the last two weeks and now I feel like I am going to wither away. I am NOT a cryer and I am not one to talk to folks about my problems, but all I am doing is arguing with my husband and tearing up.
Maybe this will help. Thanks for listening. |