I hope this is ok to talk about on here. I'm in a really difficult situation again, and heartbroken. This is not about my Yorkie, so I hope you all dont get mad at this post, but it will affect Sunni just as much as it will me. My lovable, smoochable Harry, 11 yrs old has cancer. I've known that which is why when I lost his brother in January so unexpectedly I fell apart so so so badly. The tears just wouldnt stop. Then Sunni came to us, and restored me to sanity (at least my version of it) I dont talk too much about Harry on here because he's not a Yorkie, hes a Shih Tzu. So the history here is...I had a 3 pack of Shih Tzu's Maggie Mae, George and Harry. I lost Maggie 2 summers ago this year
She was 15 and it was not unexpected really. She had congestive HF....My husband died 4 yrs ago, and Maggie was his baby..the guy who thought he hated little dogs became a slave to his Maggie Mae..Then George died after a couple of surgeries in Nov/Dec, I lost him on Jan 3, after spending New Years Eve and day on the couch holding him..ugh..I can still feel that pain. Well, Harry is now showing all the symptoms of CF. ( I do know too much about this subject because its what my husband died of as well)...So, I know what's coming...yet I keep putting off the call to the vet. He's still eating, and walking, bathroom properly etc. In fact I made him a hamburger last night, much to Sunni's dismay. I gave him a bath myself, instead of groomer, and trimmed him, brushed him.. I'm crying right now. I just cant do it yet. I'm really feeling selfish but also confused, because its so hard to know when it is the right time. I know the vet will say "if her were my dog, I would let him sleep". My family knows I''ve gone through a lot of losses in the past 5 yrs...I also lost my dad and several dear freinds (humans).. and my little puppies. Sunni is in love with him, I hate to think of how sad she will get, and worried that it will take away her happy little spirit. My mom actually said, "you shouldn't have anymore pets, because it hurts you too much", thats true, but she doesnt understand the years of love that I always have with my furry little family. This is a ramble, but I'm a wreck and have to go to an appt this afternoon and I've been a mess all morning. His cough is getting more persistent each day. I dont know what I expect anyone to say really, but I cant see this very clearly right now
I'm sorry for the long ramble.