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Originally Posted by BC030495  Your many words of comfort and compassion are deeply appreciated. Tomorrow marks 7 weeks that my Baxter has been gone. And although I do still cry, I have to be honest and say that being a part of this YorkieTalk community has truly helped me to spend minutes, hours of distraction. And that is all starting to slowly make things more manageable without breaking down. I too believe that the human body is made to heal from grief and tragedy. And the issue becomes that there is always a FIRST TIME in a persons life where that grief from a death that resulted is overwhelming and you wonder how you will EVER get through it. I LITERALLY NEVER lost anything that I loved so much. I have been lucky in that respect. I have to remember what you said, that my Baxter (who was so lively, "the life of the party" and happy) would not want me to carry on like this. It is easier said than done, but if I keep thinking & saying it, then hopefully I will one day naturally "really feel" that way. Thank you for all the compassion and time you have taken to reach out to a stranger. I sincerelyl appreciate it!
Chrissy |
I took the death of my first Yorkie, Scotty, so hard I missed 4 days from work - and for some reason, my boss and an office of co-workers understood. I'd never lost a dog that meant that much to me before - it was so unexpected and out of the blue that I was thrown for a loop. It took me years before I could think about getting my own personal dog again, though I had fosters and rehab dogs and trained dogs from time-to-time but never could really bond with any dog that wasn't my Scotty. I was so wrong to let myself stay that way.
Now I know the best thing for most of us to do is probably find another dog needing a home within a few weeks or months and not stay Yorkieless for so long ever again. At least you have your Kaylee but no two dog relationships are exactly alike. Some dogs just get so close to you - like all of my Yorkies have - that it's not quite the same somehow. And all three were very different dogs, but Jilly, my last Yorkie, and Tibbe are completely unalike - total opposites but I love him every bit as much as I did her. I've always had dogs in my life and so adored each of them but loved two others especially - my beautiful Doberman, Cobra and her son, C, but I've not been closer to any dog I've had as I have my three successive Yorkies - there's just something about those little toots that totally captures my heart, from Scotty, to Jilly and now Tibbe.
I'll be praying that one day before long you'll find a way out of this grief and begin to enjoy life again.