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Originally Posted by ShowGirlLola

Thanks for trying to help, I know what I need to do but knowing and executing are different.

My biggest mental hurdle was getting past wasting food, eating something I don't truly want or need is just as wasteful as throwing it out. I used to eat things because they were going bad, now I'm like F it, I didn't buy it, it's not my fault.

My family used to be thin, it caught up to them around 45. My mom is 5'5 and about 170, my grandmom is shorter and heavier. My mom eats like a 5 year old, basically she'll eat tomato, cheese, and carbs (pizza, spaghetti, ziti, etc) occasionally she'll eat other stuff but acts very put out. She'll eat veggies with lots of cheese or a fast food salad, to her that's healthier. She also only drinks coke. My grandmom isn't as bad, but she drinks coke and eats mostly junk too.

My problems started because of drinking nothing but soda, steroids, being sick, not being allowed outside much, and being fed mostly junky carbs. I've always had blood sugar problems and the old recommendation was sugar, no mention of following it with protein or fat.
I recently learned protein can spike your blood sugar too, that explains some of my recent crashes. I'll be ok and then suddenly get dizzy, weak, irritated, and nauseous. I don't fear hunger, but I fear that feeling.

That's awful about your sister, has she tried keto? It's supposed to help seizures.

I'm not on meds that effect my weight, but I've been on birth control pills since I was 13 (medical), idk if they've effecting my weight. It's more the mental tax of dealing with being young and having serious medical problems, then finally getting used to it and something else pops up. Plus being tired and in pain makes it hard to want to do anything. I currently need to make appointments with 5 doctors.

The wasting food is exactly where I am now. So we really try not to buy too much where we can't finish. But yeah I can't throw away food. I end up eating it.

I'm not sure about the meds my sister is taking but she was diagnosed with epilepsy probably more than a decade ago. She had a seizure while driving and totaled her car. She didn't remember a thing. She tells me her seizures are under control but then I saw a story on the news about a guy who also has epilepsy and thought he had his seizures under control and he had one while he was skydiving. Luckily his sky diving instructor saved his life.

When I was on birth control I gained weight. I was on them for about 10 years. After I went off them I lost weight, but now I gained more weight back and then some. I think it's aging and my metabolism slowing down. But I still don't want to exercise. LOL I swim in the summer and that's it.

But damn, 5 doctors? That's gotta be to straining, mentally and physically.