[oneofakind864]

She died 28 days and 10 minutes ago in my arms after a five year battle with kidney failure. I knew it was getting close and took her to the vet the morning of the day she died. The vet said she wasn't in pain and still seemed to be responsive to me and she still wanted to be held. He advised she would probably just go to sleep and not wake up. And she did...5 hours later. I still cry everyday. It was awful to hold her and feel her body temperature going down and her heartrate slowing but I know that's what SHE wanted..to be held as long as possible....and to pass in her home where she was most comfortable. I am simply grateful I didn't have to make the decision to put her to sleep or not.


I think I will always miss Chanel.


Any suggestions on dealing with grief?


I am planning on getting another one and am flying to get her next week. I sure hope that helps fill the void because right now there is a HUGE one in my life.