 Almost 2 years later, images of her death still hurt
As I am nearing the two year anniversary (on April 14) of the sudden and tragic passing of our girl, October, I can't help but be overwhelmed with emotion. I know too many of you can relate to this feeling all too well.
I never posted on YT about her passing as I always found it much too difficult. And I'm not sure how much I can go into detail about it, even now. What I will say is that she passed away due to a terrible, inconceivable accident. One that I've always claimed responsibility for. The vision that continually runs through my head is of her final moment here on earth, and seeing my baby die in such an ugly way tears my heart open each time it passes my through my mind.
So, I'm wondering if anyone else has lost their baby in a graphic and terrible nature? And if so, what coping mechanisms have helped you when those images flood your thoughts? For the many months following October's death, I had weekly therapy sessions that became monthly sessions as time progressed. They helped, and my own relationship with the Lord also helped as He gave me strength for each new day.
It's much different now, almost two years later. I miss her desperately, but I've learned to cope with her not being with us. But the images of her death still haunt me and I'm just wondering if anyone can relate to this. |