Oh dear, I am so very, very sorry to hear of your baby's tragic and unexpected passing
. How heartbreaking. You must be in so much pain, feel shocked, and I know you just want that little baby back in your arms. Try, if you can, to remember what a beautiful life you gave him, how happy he was, and what a great Momma you were to him. He would want you to try to remember the good and the love. Bless you during this time of loss and healing. My heart really goes out to you. (((HUGS)))