It can be difficult. I usually get excited over holidays, and feel like a kid again around Christmas, but for some reason, this year I have been really depressed over the past week. I really miss my brother, who would've been 14 this year, he passed when he was almost 6. It just plain sucks that he's not here and I just start to think about it too much. It's hard to explain, I guess I go through phases where I seem to hardly even think about him, and then sometimes (usually with holidays, etc), I just miss him extra and get super down about it. And I know I have my other 2 siblings to be happy for (6 and 11) but it doesn't take the pain away of missing my first baby brother. |