[Bboys mom]

Someone is shocked or disgusted by my frustration, disappointment, and honesty? Do you know anything about me or where I have been to get to this point? I am not heartless or an uncaring person by far! I am a 44 yr old full time stay at home wife, mother, and grandmother, that has dedicated my life to others. I had to have my tubes tied after my second son, due to medical complications. My husband had a cardiac arrest 17 years ago which led to his defib and pacemaker devices. DR's did not think he would survive the night, given a one percent chance to even survive the night, he was out of rehab and back to work within ninety days of being released from the hospital and physical rehabilitation. We took in our great niece from birth, was not in our plans, but we lovingly and openly accepted her. Our sons were almost through high school, people thought we were in sane. We made the decision then that I would quit my job to give her all of my attention and nourishing and the love she so deserved. Her mother was a very young teenager, could not provide for herself, let alone a new infant. She was addicted to drugs, a lot of troubles, we sacrificed many things with not one ounce of regret! When she was seven I went back to school part time to earn my degree, I wanted to work with child welfare services. I was a quarter way in with a 4.0 GPA, then my oldest son was deployed. He is an MP with the US ARMY, and he had a wife and a three week old son to care for. He asked me to quit school and take care of my grandson, so his wife could work and go to school. I did, again, no regrets. Three years later, I am still providing day care for my grandson full time. Thru all of this my husband is the bread winner in our house hold. I am still at home giving my all and then some to my family. We have made many financial sacrifices so I could be everything to everybody, whenever they need me. I asked for nothing for myself, nothing. However it has been a long time hearts desire that I have had to have a beautiful Yorkie. My husband a yr ago handed me a thousand dollars, told me to get my fur baby. What did I do? Accidentally came across a sad, sad puppy mill. I rescued and paid for two sister designer puppies. One was very ill, I took her to vet and loved and nurtured her to a healthy state. I have trained them myself, and very well i might add. They even ring a bell at our back door to alert us that they need let out. So for the last year I have pinched every penny that I could, to save for my Yorkie. I couldn't ask my husband for the money, I didn't contribute to the first thousand he gave me. I have no income, he went without to give me something, that is how caring he is. I was so excited to have found a breeder I could afford, shame on me for not researching more than I did. She did not tell me the mother was a blue born, and that my puppy may have issues, I did not know he could or would have hair issues. Had I known and been told, like she should have told me, I would not have chosen that breeder, or puppy!! I am not a breeder, I do not have a lot of money, or have a chance at first pic of litters several times a year. I, like anyone else have the right and deserve to get the dog that thought I was getting. I am not some bum who begged for a freebie, I paid good money and anyone else in my position would be just a bit frustrated and upset too! Walk in my shoes, then see how it feels before judgements are made. If sacrificing and loving and then being excited and expecting what I paid for and waiting for, for so long, is wrong, then maybe I am a horrible person.