[matese]

I think it's the tragic way you lost her. We give advise we ourselves sometimes can't follow. You will always love Marley and never forget her,and will always blame your self, I would be beating myself to death, but that will not bring her back. You have your lil boy, he will bring much happiness to you, and most important to lil Miss Izze. Handling human death is way different I have found then handling the death of a furbaby that is with us 24/7, that are solely dependent on us for all their needs, we put their needs before our own, we make sure they eat before we do. If we are out for several hours we rush to walk them or put them outside to potty before we even take our coats off. They always come first, they greet us with so much joy and love when we have to leave them home alone. Loosing one leaves a large void in your heart. I have lost more babies then I care to remember, it never gets easier, the pain never lessons, it get worse, more painful, I lost my mother when I was 11 y/o, that is manyyyyyy years ago, it was a hit and run, I was with her, the memory to this day is still very vivid in my mind. I had to put down my 17 y/o girl down one year ago, 3 weeks later still sick and grieving over her loss my son passed away in his sleep, heart attack, no history of a heart condition, to young to leave this world and he was my only child. His loss was just as over whelming as my little girls,his loss was a total shock just as my little girls was, but the pain in my heart was a different kind of pain. These little furbutts leave such an impact on us when we loose them, they affect our lives, thinking, our home is affected, there is an emptiness in it. The bond we have with them is very great, we watch them closer them most ppl watch their 2 yo babies. I have never lost a baby due to an accident it has to extremely over whelming and never forgotten. The loss of my little girl and my son I pour more love onto my lil unplanned for adopted boy. You have two beautiful lil furbutts love them every minute of every day. The memory lasts for ever, the pain eases over time. (((hugs)))