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smelcerk · 10-06-2014, 07:13 PM

I have spent the past hour reading posts in this forum and crying my eyes out. It has been strangely cathartic to share in all of your grief. I am a private griever and tend to like to curl up alone and cry. I decided to post in an effort to hopefully release some of the pain and prepare myself for new life. My precious Zoey was six years old when she was taken from me and my husband a little over a month ago. We knew we loved her like our own child but were completely unprepared for the pain and grief. Had no idea the loss of a pet could bring that. We were on vacation and had left her with my daughter. My daughter let her out to go to the bathroom and did not watch her. She did not have a fenced yard and my dog was killed by a car. I was not there with her. I feel so bad for my daughter because she is devastated and blames herself but I feel even worse for myself because I blame her too. I also blame myself because I left her in a home that wasn't safe. I just thought of myself and my vacation and because I loved my daughter so much, I just assumed everything would be okay. I hope that time will help all of us to heal. We all learned some very painful lessons. I thought I would want to wait for some time to pass but the emptiness in the house has been unbearable. We are getting a new baby girl. Initially my search led me to a company that I almost purchased from. I had several red flags and found out they were a horrible nationally known puppy mill company. I will not slander them but most of you probably already know who they are. I am a complete novice. After that scare, I researched breeders for weeks and found the perfect breeder right here on yt. Her name is Deb Sillers. I drove 12 hours to go meet her and her babies and she helped me pick out the perfect baby for our family. Her name is Mia. Zoey will always be my first baby and the one that led me to my love for the amazing breed but I am hoping baby Mia will help my family to heal. Stories and pictures will be coming in the main forum as we begin to bond start this new journey. Who knows where it shall lead.

10-06-2014, 07:13 PM	#1
smelcerk Senior Yorkie Talker Join Date: Sep 2014 Location: Emmett, ID, USA Posts: 189	Saying goodbye to Zoey I have spent the past hour reading posts in this forum and crying my eyes out. It has been strangely cathartic to share in all of your grief. I am a private griever and tend to like to curl up alone and cry. I decided to post in an effort to hopefully release some of the pain and prepare myself for new life. My precious Zoey was six years old when she was taken from me and my husband a little over a month ago. We knew we loved her like our own child but were completely unprepared for the pain and grief. Had no idea the loss of a pet could bring that. We were on vacation and had left her with my daughter. My daughter let her out to go to the bathroom and did not watch her. She did not have a fenced yard and my dog was killed by a car. I was not there with her. I feel so bad for my daughter because she is devastated and blames herself but I feel even worse for myself because I blame her too. I also blame myself because I left her in a home that wasn't safe. I just thought of myself and my vacation and because I loved my daughter so much, I just assumed everything would be okay. I hope that time will help all of us to heal. We all learned some very painful lessons. I thought I would want to wait for some time to pass but the emptiness in the house has been unbearable. We are getting a new baby girl. Initially my search led me to a company that I almost purchased from. I had several red flags and found out they were a horrible nationally known puppy mill company. I will not slander them but most of you probably already know who they are. I am a complete novice. After that scare, I researched breeders for weeks and found the perfect breeder right here on yt. Her name is Deb Sillers. I drove 12 hours to go meet her and her babies and she helped me pick out the perfect baby for our family. Her name is Mia. Zoey will always be my first baby and the one that led me to my love for the amazing breed but I am hoping baby Mia will help my family to heal. Stories and pictures will be coming in the main forum as we begin to bond start this new journey. Who knows where it shall lead.