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Originally Posted by Carmeow  Big sis vs. Lil sis - YouTube
Tony and I watched this video earlier today and we're laughingn so hard. This was soon after we had brought her home and they were clearly still duking it out. Luma was an only dog for a year until Rosie came home with us. Luma was unfriendly at first. She never liked other dogs and would get defensive at dog parks if other dogs came near her. When Rosie came home she was the typical annoying little sister, 1/4 Luma's size but with an even bigger bark and attitude. Believe it or not, somehow they learned to love each other. Sisters and best friends at the end. Luma became so much more friendly after learning how to play with other dogs, thanks to Rosie.
We took Luma to the dog park a few days ago and it was a mess. She was mean to every dog who came near her and we eventually had to leave. She hadn't been like that since before Rosie. It made me sad and I started to cry thinking that with Rosie gone, luma is now back to being a grouch, and I worry that she's unhappy. It truly upsets me. Tonight's just one of those nights...I'm sobbing, heartbroken, lonely, in satisfied, and the only thing that could heal my heart is having my angel back in my arms...almost four months later I am still hurting...Daddy, too. We can't get over this. I can't bring myself to ever get another pet. I don't think I can ever open my heart again to another dog. To everyone who has lost a loved one...I am so sorry For the times I offered my condolences...never truly having experienced a close loss myself, I said the words we are expected to say...but now, NOW I truly understand and there are no words that can heal this terrible pain. I have never lost like I did when Rosie was put to sleep. It changed something inside me forever and I despise it. I can't accept what happened, even now. It seems to be getting harder every day. I can only turn to prayer and ask for God to heal me and restore my faith that some day I will hold my Rosie again. |
I love that video. It gave me such a smile just like when I first saw it. For the first month after losing Minnie I felt similar. How could I ever love another dog? I had nightmares about getting another yorkie that wasn't Minnie (though I was eventually 100% ready, and only then got Cookie). I can't tell you when the sadness will end, as it still makes me cry sometimes a year and a half after Minnie died, though most of my memories of her are happy (I put her in my avatar pic here so I can see her every day). You don't have to apologize for consoling people and not knowing how much it hurts. How could you know without experiencing it? I'm so sorry you do have to know this hurt now.
I wish there was something I could say to make things better. With my sadness losing Minnie I just had to keep telling myself to look at the big picture: that I had so many great times with her and how we were so special to each other. I just want to pick her up and hug her and run around with her too. You gave Rosie a great loving home and fought like hell for her. She couldn't have had a better mommy.
Please take care of yourself, Carm. Maybe this sounds crazy, but have you tried exercising more? There was one point of my life where I was extremely depressed, and what fixed it was running and hiking, getting active, upping my energy level. No idea if it could work for you, but I'm just throwing the idea out there because it made me feel way better.
Chris