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How very tragic for you, all before your eyes, an image that will stay with you for a long time, sorry to say. Cry it all out, take one day at a time. Oct 1st will be one years I had to put my beautiful 17 y/o down, but it feels just like yesterday. For 6 weeks all I did was cry, it was just me and her, now I was totally alone. When ppl would ask did I live by myself I would say no, I with with my dog. It was a tragic loss for me. Nothing like what you went through. Max will live forever in your heart. When I had to put my girl down I swore no more dogs, the pain of losing them is getting to over whelming. Then I received a call from my vet, the rescue team she works with just bought in a lil 2 1/2 y/o lil boy. I told my vet all the reasons why I couldn't / did not want another dog. In a nut shell I ended up adopting him the next day. You never replace a pet, each baby is diff, they have their own lil personalities. Bringing Cody in to my life made my house a home again, I was in a very dark place for 6 weeks, Cody rescued me. I think of my lil girl every day, but that hole in my heart is now filed with love for my special lil boy. He help me cope with the loss of a long time friend and companion. Think about another baby, maybe even a rescue one, rescues are so rewarding to know you saved a life and giving them a 2nd chance, rescues become very special to you. Grieve, cry, get all the hurt out, but please think about filling that void the will remain in your heart with a lil fur baby that needs a loving mom and a happy home. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayer to help give you strength through this painful time. (((hugs)))