I had to have my little put to sleep December 1st 2013. After the death of my parents, it was the most painful thing I ever had to do. It is definitely not easy but it does get better. For the first 3 months I could not stop crying. I left her blankie, sweater and her bed alone as if she was still here. I have her ashes on my nightstand next to my bed. I still take out the lock of hair that I have and just hold for comfort.
No it will not be easy but believe it does get better. I know there times when she comes to visit me. Sometimes I can sense her presence and brings a smile to my face. I know she is checking on me to see if I am okay. She was very protective and possessive of me. She cared for my well being as much as I cared for her's. While I don't cry as much, there is still a sadness but it is slowly turning into beautiful memories of our time together. I know that we will see each other again and that is what gets me through.
I have open my heart up to another little girl who I am building a bond with. She is definitely not a replacement. My Brandi has opened me up to what it's like to live with and love yorkies. I just wanted another opportunity to share that love with another beautiful yorkie. Allow yourself t grieve and if you feel like crying, go ahead and cry. I still haven't put Brandi's stuff away although I let my new yorkie have her blankie (I'm sure Brandi is not too thrill with that
).