(Terra) I really appreciate your honesty. You were brave to take on the task of two - I know deep inside there's a lot of love inside you to give these two pups a home and it took great courage in the first place to step out of your comfort zone. And I'm proud of you for recognizing that you need some extra help in getting through the extra stress. I have anxiety/panic problems too and get overwhelmed and depressed. It is difficult & my reactions sometimes surprise me - like no matter that I wanted a dog for years, I nearly passed out when I knew it was "a done deal" and then I found out how very much I *abhor* peeing on the carpet! But my kids & dh are very supportive and sometimes I just take time out away from the dog. Thankfully, too, Buddy isn't a barker and sleeps well in his crate. I once saw a theory in a book on anxiety disorder, about a rainbarrel. The idea is that when the stressors (rain) in our lives add up, then the barrel overflows (a symptom of too much stored up). I've got to get into the habit of those daily walks too. They are one way of getting some rain out of the barrel. But lately around here it's raining too hard (not literally, but you know what I mean?) and I've got anxiety, strange bouts of crying and insomnia. Plus PMS LOL! Anyway, I just wanted to say that I think you're brave and strong and courageous and good things are coming your way! Take care...and lots of hugs/smiles, Cheryl
